when I think about the guy that I hit
当我想到那个被我打的人时，
all I can see is my dad's face
我脑子里浮现的都是我爸爸的脸，
my business has been officially valued
我的生意已经被官方估值
at 25 million really and they diagnosed
2500 万美元，他们诊断
me close to a psychopath do you think
我接近精神病患者，你认为
people are born even
人是天生的吗，即使
I've been convicted of multiple gbhs I
我已经被判犯有多项严重罪行 我
put a man in a coma and now I'm a
让一个人陷入昏迷，现在我成了
multi-millionaire and I'll answer any
千万富翁，我会回答任何
question
问题
what
is daddy why why are you so violent I
爸爸为什么你这么暴力，我
was a very angry kid I had a very
是一个非常愤怒的孩子，我有一个非常
abusive dad who was an alcoholic so the
虐待我的父亲，他是一个酒鬼，所以
only expression we ever really showed in
我们在家里唯一真正表现出的表情
our family was anger I would like go to
就是愤怒，我想回到
my own room and punch myself in the head
自己的房间，打自己的头，
because I was just so angry you don't
因为我太生气了，你
ever punch yourself in the face
永远不要打自己的脸，
I'm 13 years old what were you doing
我 13 岁，你当时是什么样
when you were my age so your age things
你在我这个年纪的时候会做什么，所以你这个年纪事情
were starting to get bad I would just
开始变得糟糕我会
deliberately smash things like fires
故意砸东西比如放火、
shoplift and cause a lot of criminal
偷窃并造成很多刑事
damage I'd go and smash every single bus
破坏我会去砸碎每一个公交车站的
stop window what was he not doing
窗户
if I was playing Moshi Monsters
如果我是 玩 Moshi Monsters
and then getting a bit older drink drugs
然后长大一点喝毒品
I felt powerless my whole life and then
我感到无能为力 我一生都在战斗，
when I got a bit stronger I started to
当我变得更强大时，我开始
fight back and I got a bit of power back
反击，我重新获得了一些力量，
a bit of significance made me feel
一些意义让我感到
strong and I kind of become a little bit
强大，我有点
addicted to fighting you know I had an
沉迷于战斗，你知道我有
asthma and a year after I was expelled
哮喘， 在我被学校开除一年后，
from school we all have the like ability
我们都有做
to be bad we all have like that in us
坏事的本能，我们都有这样的本能，
you know what I mean and there was one
你知道我的意思，有天
night where I was in a taxi queue
晚上，我在出租车排队的时候，
and I jumped to the front of the taxi
我跳到了出租车的前面
queue and skipped the queue didn't
排队，没有
realize but I was just so drunk I kind
意识到自己插队了，但我当时喝醉了，
of stumbled in there and to this day
跌跌撞撞地走进去，直到今天
this is no excuse but I just want to try
这都不是借口，但我只是想试着
and explain to this day when I think
解释，直到今天，当我
about the guy that I hear all I can see
想起那个人时，我听到了所有的 我可以看到
is my dad's face
我爸爸的脸，
right so I know I know that he triggered
所以我知道他激怒了
me which is no excuse I take full
我，这不是借口，我承担全部
responsibility I just
责任，我只是
snapped and just attacked it do you
发怒并攻击它，你
think he's crazy yeah
认为他疯了吗，
yes
是的，是的
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I love my family are actually police
我爱我的家人实际上是
officers so I've heard how maybe easy it
警察 所以我听说
is as soon as you go into prison I do
一旦你进了监狱，事情可能会变得很容易，但我
feel like no matter what your crime was
觉得不管你的罪行
how bad it was I feel like there's a lot
有多严重 我觉得有
of well you're okay like is everything
很多问题，比如你还好吗，
all right with you how are you feeling
你今天感觉怎么样，那些
today people who are suffering don't get
受苦的人不明白
that so why all of a sudden someone
这一点，那么为什么突然间，一个
who's done something so terrible you
做了如此可怕的事情的人，你
know getting all this this help from
知道，得到所有
such professionals all of a sudden but
突然间，这些专业人士会给予帮助，但当
then there's people that need to answer
有人需要回答
it they do get it it is available for
这个问题时，他们确实会得到帮助，
people it's not just available to
它不仅对
convicted criminals like it's there for
被定罪的罪犯开放，
them as soon as they're in because
而且在他们入狱后，它也会为他们提供帮助，因为
they've traumatized a lot of them have
他们 她们中很多人都受过创伤，
been raped a lot of them have been
很多人都被强奸过，很多人都
sexually abused as a child you know and
在童年时期受到过性虐待，你知道，
all uses a symptom that that's occurred
所有这些都是
as a result yeah but these people need
结果的症状，是的，但这些人需要
help these people don't need but they
帮助，这些人不需要，但他们
also need to be throwing the key away
也需要 把钥匙扔掉，我
they also need to be punished I think
认为他们也需要受到惩罚，
and they are punished because they're
他们受到惩罚是因为他们
sitting in a Cell I could talk about
坐在牢房里，我可以
this all day I think it's go to prison
整天谈论这个，我认为先去监狱，
first and then we'll talk about it yeah
然后我们再讨论，是的，
we'll have some trauma first and then
我们' 我们会先经历一些创伤，然后
we'll talk about it prison is meant to
我们再谈论监狱的意义
be a place where you know your Mentor
你知道你的导师
will be punished in you've got to treat
会受到惩罚的地方，你必须像对待
treat you like a prisoner and not not
囚犯一样对待你，而不是
someone that you know for 23 hours a day
你每天 23 小时认识的人，
you do get treated like a prisoner trust
你确实会被当作囚犯对待，相信
me she has a good point yeah yeah
我，她说得对，是的
do you think you're rehabilitated
你觉得你已经康复了吗？
I don't think I'm rehabilitating though
我不认为我正在康复，尽管
I'm not
我身体并不
fit and I never will be there's a saying
健康，也永远不会康复。
in uh Narcotics Anonymous which is
匿名戒毒会里有一句话，
yesterday's shower doesn't keep you
昨天的淋浴并不能让你
clean today you said you used to switch
今天保持干净，你说你以前
on and off with your anger do you think
用你的愤怒打开和关闭你认为
that it could possibly return absolutely
它可能绝对回来吗
I am under No Illusion that I'm fixed do
我没有幻想我是固定的
you think that you have to hit rock
你认为你必须按下摇滚
buttons to go to the top I feel like
按钮才能到达顶峰我感觉
I've got an upper hand on you right
我有一个上
because they say void to create values
因为他们说空虚会创造价值，
and I've always had this like need for
而我一直需要
significance my dad I didn't feel like
意义，我爸爸，我感觉不到
he loved me so now I have this like huge
他爱我，所以现在我有了巨大的
void and I channeled it in the complete
空虚，而我把它引导到了完全
wrong areas through Power and violence
错误的地方 通过权力和暴力，
but now I've shadowed into business and
但现在我已经进入商业领域，
like making myself the best person I can
喜欢制作 尽我所能成为最好的自己
be and helping people and making the
，帮助别人，让
world a better place to the point where
世界变得更美好，
it's like a compelling force that just I
就像一股强大的力量，我
can't stop so I have to feel awful not
无法停止，所以我必须为
being able to like get the respect of
无法得到父亲的尊重而感到难过
your father yeah because he can control
是的，因为他可以控制
how his father behaved so it's good that
他父亲的行为，所以
you turn it into something positive at
至少把它变成积极的事情是件好事，
least so
所以
what I've done
我做的
is bad but in terms of my life path and
是坏事，但就我的人生道路和
the things that I've been able to
我所
achieve has actually had a positive
取得的成就而言，实际上
impact on the world but I wouldn't go
对世界产生积极影响，但我不会
back and change it you wouldn't go back
回去改变它，你不会回去
and change it no I don't regret any of
改变它，不，我不后悔任何
it so the guy that you that you you hear
事，所以那个人，你听到了，
yeah do you not think his life was
你不觉得他的生活
impacted by what you did what was you
受到你所做的事情的影响，你
getting to him honestly
对他有什么影响，说实话，
um I would have said sorry yeah and I
嗯，我会说对不起，我
would have said thank you yeah because
会说谢谢，因为
he was the last like significant thing
他是最后一个
that made me change I regret that I have
让我改变的重要因素，我很遗憾我
caused harm to him and his family of
对他造成了伤害， 当然，他的家人
course okay but I don't regret
也一样，但我并不后悔
everything as a whole because otherwise
所有事情，否则
I wouldn't be where I am now you don't
我也不会有现在的成就，
need like trauma and that kind of thing
不需要经历创伤之类的事情
to be who you want to be
做你想成为的人
because you did a lot of like violent
因为你做了很多类似暴力的
acts that kind of affected people's
行为，影响了人们的
families did you experience guilt or
家庭，你是否感到内疚或
shame
羞愧？
I'll be completely honest because I want
我会完全诚实，因为我想
to be a completely truthful I didn't
成为一个完全诚实的人，我没有
experience any shame or girl they sent
经历过 任何羞耻或女孩他们送
me for a psychiatric assessment and they
我去做精神评估，他们
diagnosed me with an anti-social
诊断我患有反社会
personality disorder close to a
人格障碍，接近
psychopath yeah and I wouldn't lay
精神病患者，是的，我不会把
myself a psychopath but I would label
自己归类为精神病患者，但我会把
myself as someone with on their low
自己标记为低端患者
scale end of the emotions yeah and it's
情绪，是的，那是
because I've shut them down over the
因为我多年来一直压抑着这些
years of trauma so I didn't understand
情绪，所以我不明白
remorse guilt shame but in terms of a
悔恨、内疚、羞耻，但就感觉
feeling yeah
而言，是的，说
to be honest at the time I didn't feel
实话，当时我什么感觉都没有，
anything though
但当
well when you entered prison did you
你进入的时候 监狱里你是否一直
carry that violence with you or did you
带着暴力，还是
want to leave it behind immediately I
想立刻摆脱它？我
had a breakthrough moment I realized
有一个突破的时刻，我意识到
that
I needed to stop blaming every
我需要停止责怪
everything and everyone around me for my
我周围的一切，因为我的
life was so tough and I realized that if
生活如此艰难，我意识到如果
I wanted my life to change I had to
我想要我的 生活要改变，我必须
change myself I've always been very
改变自己，我一直很
addictive right so I've been addicted to
容易上瘾，对吧，所以我一直沉迷于
drugs alcohol gambling everything you
毒品 酒精、赌博、你
can think of yeah and somehow
能想到的一切，是的，不知何故
miraculously became addicted to kind of
奇迹般地上瘾了，有点
like working on myself so I became
像在锻炼自己，所以我变得
obsessive with it yeah the library the
痴迷于它，是的，图书馆，
free psychiatrist the rehabilitation
免费的精神病医生，康复
program the maths and English lessons
计划，数学和英语课，
the gym yeah you know the time to think
健身房，是的，你知道思考的时间
and like just reflect on myself yeah
和 就像反省自己一样，是的，
people that are suffering with so much
那些遭受如此多问题困扰的人
issues aren't getting seen too quick
没有得到足够快的关注，
enough which then ends in them doing
最终他们做出了
stuff like this by putting people in
这样的事情，让人们陷入
comas however when they're in prison and
昏迷，然而当他们在监狱里
already done their horrible stuff then
已经做了可怕的事情时
they're getting seen too and it's like
他们也被看到了，就像
you know put a blast on it make sure
你知道的，把它吹响，确保
they're okay and it's like well there
他们没事，就像
actually are people that need help
真的有人
before it ends in prison the violence
在监狱结束前需要帮助，暴力是否
did that continue through prison is
在监狱里继续存在，是否有
there some of the things that went on
一些 发生的事情太
were horrible you know people were
可怕了，你知道有人
getting stabbed people were getting
被刺伤，有人
putting tuna cans in socks and getting
把金枪鱼罐头塞进袜子里，有人在
smashed around the back of the head or
脑后被打，有人把
pillowcases over their head and just
枕头套套在头上，有人
beating up the foot as soon as that door
在早上门一打开就打脚。
opens in the morning they rush in they
冲进去，他们
steal everything and they beat you up it
偷走一切，他们殴打你，
can be get very extreme they even put
可能会变得非常 极端他们甚至把
sugar into a kettle let it boil push up
糖放进水壶让它煮沸推起
your face so they could peel the skin
你的脸这样他们就可以剥掉
off their face I mean it it's nasty
脸上的皮我的意思是这是令人讨厌的
stuff
东西
oh my God the first time you've been
哦天哪你第一次
sentenced to prison how did that kind of
被判入狱你怎么会这样
feel I probably thought it was quite
感觉我可能认为这
cool yeah yeah there was probably a bit
很酷，是的，可能有点
of nerves and probably a little bit of
紧张，可能有点
apprehension but at the same time it was
担心，但同时这
almost a bit like
几乎有点像是
yeah I've gone to prison my mates are
的，我进了监狱，我的朋友们
gonna think I'm really cool now if you
会认为我 我现在真的很酷如果你
were in prison would you think it would
在监狱里你会认为这会
be cool
很酷
hold your feet
抱住你的脚
how did you become a millionaire in the
你是如何成为百万富翁的
early days all I did was help people and
早期我所做的就是帮助别人并
try and help as many people as I could
尝试帮助尽可能多的人
and share awareness as much as I could
并分享 通过分享我的故事，我尽可能多地提高了人们的认识。一
by sharing my story that started off as
开始是
a one-to-one thing but then I hired team
一对一的事情，但后来我雇佣了团队
members and he did the right thing at
成员，他在正确的时间在正确的市场上做了正确的事情，
the right time with the right Market
things can grow very very quickly we now
事情可以发展得非常快，我们现在
help other people transform their lives
帮助 其他人改变他们的生活，
and then become life coaches I've got
然后成为生活教练我有
five thousand of them
五千个
now you got money how much money do you
现在你有钱你
have my business is uh been officially
有多少钱我的 业务的官方
valued at 25 million dollars but how
估值为 2500 万美元，但
much did that watch cost fifteen
那块手表值多少钱？一万五千美元，
thousand guess how much this costs
猜猜这个值多少钱，
oh well done
哦，干得好，
well done
干得好，
so how do you feel walking around with
那么你带着物质物品四处走动感觉如何？
materialistic items does it make you
这是否会让你成为
really normally a materialistic guy
一个物质主义者？
right I'm a digital Nomad so I don't
对吧？ 我是一个数字游民，所以我
have a car or a house you just you just
没有车也没有房子，你只是
fly through a laptop how did you travel
通过笔记本电脑飞，你是怎么去旅行的，
to places I own two suitcases that's all
我有两个行李箱，这就是
I have really and I will rent cars I
我所有的东西，我会租车，我
will stay in hotels and I'll rent Villas
会住酒店， 我会租别墅
and I'll decide where I want to go
，然后决定我想去哪里，
no I think it's because of like
不，我认为这是因为
something about his journey that he's
他经历过的旅行，
had I feel like that's kind of boost his
我觉得这有点提升了他的
ego a bit if I had money
自尊心，如果我有钱，
milkshakes
奶昔，
maybe I
也许我
okay well you'd have to come through we
没事，你 '必须通过我们
get you a millionaire Now You're Gonna
让你成为百万富翁现在你要
Roll next you know this you know it
滚了接下来你知道这
sounds a little bit it's fake but it
听起来有点假但它
shines again
再次闪耀